Looking You Inside
When I were looking you one night. You were sitting just one table away in front of my chair in the dining room with your light blue shirt in a long arms and black veil. Yup! It was the 15th of November 2014. Facing to the west side at the corner of the dinner table, you were talking relaxingly with your five other friends. You looked so beautiful with your jokes and smile sometimes.
You were really fondle me on with your style. The way when you were looking at me at a glance of sight. Like you just pretended on me. Making me at an angered thought. Looking your heart, your soul,and your feeling which lead me surmise who you are. But all of them just in my mind about you. You are so so and so distance of me. Looking you just like see the moon with a billion galaxies in the outer space from the world which make me have so a lot of dream and imagination on my destination. I just can be on reflection on image about you with the all of your perfection.
I 'm just like the granulation of dust through the billion of galaxies in this cosmos. All at once will be swept away temporally at the second time at any time. You are so far to be reached. Is there any a thin feeling in your heart about me? I'd never guessed you had. Coz you are the only in my imagination. It's just on my big hopes on you. Even though you'll never feel what I've thought about you. You are my colorized life as at the beginning as seeing you here.
Somehow, there's something which'd been being happen for my feeling between us in time around. As you'd talked to me in such like whispering to my ears you'd come to my home. Even thought it's just like an offer. It's just like asking for me. I knew that it's just maybe my guest of you. It seemed just surprising for me for what you'd said. What I'd just heard. And whatever it was you'd said and your felt about me. If it's true, how I're praised like flying on the sky b'coz of you. For instinct, as a human being no one could deny that everybody would love it so much. Although, I guessed it's only missed perception and maybe it's only my dreaming too. I'm so sorry all about these.
It's so hard to think, to imagine, to dream and whatever it was. There would only one to be certain that b'coz of you. I teach in your class enjoyable, interestingly, excitingly, full of happiness, very fun, full of spirit and many more which there isn't word be able to describe its in all about. Frankly, b'coz of you, our class is shining brightly. No fear nor disappointed. All of them were happen for about three months. In around of the fourth, there's something being changed.
You looked being felt so worried. You looked not want to see my face. Even only showed your face in at the glance. Your gesture as if to avoid seeing me. You usually act a stranger in each time you look at me in just up your hand as a sign that you appreciate me. It's really changes view of you. You look so strange for me now days. Don't you want just let me know a little bit why you set me on like it? or just give the reason why ...? Such as what in one song occurs ..."just give me a reason".
Hmm...once again. I 's so impressive b'coz of your attendance on that night. I's sitting alone in the dining room facing to the south.While waiting all your friends having dinner finished, you're suddenly coming with your a square plate on your hands. The 22th of Des 2014, once again to be my flowered view in the eve. Even I knew you'd never realized it even on a thin. You'd just taken your seat in front of my chair, without caring me at all. Even only smile at me or any sign as in any time before.
It made me get a lot of thought that you've already changed. I just did hope that you'd respect at me, even only a little bit. But you didn't. So why did you do it to me? What was I wrong? Frankly, I just wanna do what other people sometimes do. I know that this story is only for me and my image about you. I realized too, that I'm already getting old. I just imagine that it's a perfect fulness addressed on you and right, only for you, absolutely. But for the time being, it's made it so clearly that you've been getting hate me more and more. I've had twice called you to see me, but all of messages you denied. I'm so sorry thought about you, and so sorry for that you'd placed me on a bad guy on thought. How pity on me as the bad guy so far. And one more thing, at the night of showing art stage of a week event for art and health, you did true really didn't be aware of your surround by be being busy with your counting. I just wanna say ...."Have a nice for your all days on your hating me and putting me on a blacklist teacher whom you've ever known.". Thanks, this never ending story, hopefully...hahaha....
The holiday is over for this odd semester. We are now in the even semester. We back to school as usual. The situation of teaching and learning process in your class is also running as well. The different is your act be so different than before we emotionally closed well by one another. You never give me chance to talk to you closedly as well as before. Even you've ever said would tell me a story of you specially with me, but you just put it on hanging up. I've had more than twice asked you to listen it but you just said a thousand reasons that had not time to tell.
The days go on as well, you play on me as well too. It really got me in a ghost cyrcle. There is not expectation anymore. It's just like you pretending on me as a time lengh going on. Your promise goes through by the wind blowing on the sky. Waiting it just like trying to write on the water surface without any trace at all.
The days went on in a quietly day, no good news, an interesting stories, and even a joke story such as the days in some months before. It's so difficult to believe. The days is being changed drastically with no friendshiful anymore. So I just can say that the story is able to be end here.
For all of you who know this post, pelase ...help me skip away from this thought. I can't stand anymore on this thing. It's been making me sick. I live in such as a problematic selfi for myself. It's really a stupid thing. I know, you are there as whom persons may be a friend.
You were really fondle me on with your style. The way when you were looking at me at a glance of sight. Like you just pretended on me. Making me at an angered thought. Looking your heart, your soul,and your feeling which lead me surmise who you are. But all of them just in my mind about you. You are so so and so distance of me. Looking you just like see the moon with a billion galaxies in the outer space from the world which make me have so a lot of dream and imagination on my destination. I just can be on reflection on image about you with the all of your perfection.
I 'm just like the granulation of dust through the billion of galaxies in this cosmos. All at once will be swept away temporally at the second time at any time. You are so far to be reached. Is there any a thin feeling in your heart about me? I'd never guessed you had. Coz you are the only in my imagination. It's just on my big hopes on you. Even though you'll never feel what I've thought about you. You are my colorized life as at the beginning as seeing you here.
Somehow, there's something which'd been being happen for my feeling between us in time around. As you'd talked to me in such like whispering to my ears you'd come to my home. Even thought it's just like an offer. It's just like asking for me. I knew that it's just maybe my guest of you. It seemed just surprising for me for what you'd said. What I'd just heard. And whatever it was you'd said and your felt about me. If it's true, how I're praised like flying on the sky b'coz of you. For instinct, as a human being no one could deny that everybody would love it so much. Although, I guessed it's only missed perception and maybe it's only my dreaming too. I'm so sorry all about these.
It's so hard to think, to imagine, to dream and whatever it was. There would only one to be certain that b'coz of you. I teach in your class enjoyable, interestingly, excitingly, full of happiness, very fun, full of spirit and many more which there isn't word be able to describe its in all about. Frankly, b'coz of you, our class is shining brightly. No fear nor disappointed. All of them were happen for about three months. In around of the fourth, there's something being changed.
You looked being felt so worried. You looked not want to see my face. Even only showed your face in at the glance. Your gesture as if to avoid seeing me. You usually act a stranger in each time you look at me in just up your hand as a sign that you appreciate me. It's really changes view of you. You look so strange for me now days. Don't you want just let me know a little bit why you set me on like it? or just give the reason why ...? Such as what in one song occurs ..."just give me a reason".
Hmm...once again. I 's so impressive b'coz of your attendance on that night. I's sitting alone in the dining room facing to the south.While waiting all your friends having dinner finished, you're suddenly coming with your a square plate on your hands. The 22th of Des 2014, once again to be my flowered view in the eve. Even I knew you'd never realized it even on a thin. You'd just taken your seat in front of my chair, without caring me at all. Even only smile at me or any sign as in any time before.
It made me get a lot of thought that you've already changed. I just did hope that you'd respect at me, even only a little bit. But you didn't. So why did you do it to me? What was I wrong? Frankly, I just wanna do what other people sometimes do. I know that this story is only for me and my image about you. I realized too, that I'm already getting old. I just imagine that it's a perfect fulness addressed on you and right, only for you, absolutely. But for the time being, it's made it so clearly that you've been getting hate me more and more. I've had twice called you to see me, but all of messages you denied. I'm so sorry thought about you, and so sorry for that you'd placed me on a bad guy on thought. How pity on me as the bad guy so far. And one more thing, at the night of showing art stage of a week event for art and health, you did true really didn't be aware of your surround by be being busy with your counting. I just wanna say ...."Have a nice for your all days on your hating me and putting me on a blacklist teacher whom you've ever known.". Thanks, this never ending story, hopefully...hahaha....
The holiday is over for this odd semester. We are now in the even semester. We back to school as usual. The situation of teaching and learning process in your class is also running as well. The different is your act be so different than before we emotionally closed well by one another. You never give me chance to talk to you closedly as well as before. Even you've ever said would tell me a story of you specially with me, but you just put it on hanging up. I've had more than twice asked you to listen it but you just said a thousand reasons that had not time to tell.
The days go on as well, you play on me as well too. It really got me in a ghost cyrcle. There is not expectation anymore. It's just like you pretending on me as a time lengh going on. Your promise goes through by the wind blowing on the sky. Waiting it just like trying to write on the water surface without any trace at all.
The days went on in a quietly day, no good news, an interesting stories, and even a joke story such as the days in some months before. It's so difficult to believe. The days is being changed drastically with no friendshiful anymore. So I just can say that the story is able to be end here.
For all of you who know this post, pelase ...help me skip away from this thought. I can't stand anymore on this thing. It's been making me sick. I live in such as a problematic selfi for myself. It's really a stupid thing. I know, you are there as whom persons may be a friend.
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