Short Story of the 26th XII.2

 Theme: I and My School

Me and Smudama

By Andi Fachraeni

 

In a boarding school nestled amidst stunning green mountains, I, Fara, felt lucky to be able to spend my school days in such a beautiful place. Every morning, I was woken up by the singing of birds and the fresh breeze coming through

the dorm room windows.

Life in the dormitory is very different from life at home. I had to be independent in taking care of myself and learn various new skills. Although it was difficult at first, I began to enjoy daily activities such as studying, playing, and interacting with

new friends.

On the first day of school, we were taught how to iron our uniforms properly and according to school standards. At first, I was very unaccustomed to the many rules, ranging from rules in the dormitory to rules at school.

Every morning we had to wake up at dawn prayer time to perform morning prayers in congregation and continued with cleaning the dormitory. After that, we got ready for school at 6:25am. With these rules, we learned discipline.

I go to SMAN 5 Gowa which implements a moving class system, this system is a system that makes students move classes during class changes. Sometimes the moving classmade us very tired because of the many stairs and climbs in every corner of the school.

After a few days of being a student here, I became more accustomed to the atmosphere. I&#39’ve gotten used to washing my own clothes, cleaning up, and being more disciplined.

Every place in the dormitory has some rules that need to be applied, such as not making noise while in the room, cultivating permissions to elders, and the most confusing is the rule regarding socialization in the dining room. Socialization in this dining room requires us to socialize with seniors who are at the same table with us, we must know the name of the senior, where his room is. Hufttt ... just boring.

My activities don't change much from day to day, waking up, going to school, eating, sleeping, and the most important thing is socialization. The number of socialization activities regarding dormitory socialization, school rules, and extracurricular activities had become daily life at that time.

It was this second grade period that made it difficult for me to manage my schedule, starting from organizations, extracurricular activities, and dormitory committees. I became a member of the intra-school organization, participated in several scouting activities, and became a member of the dormitory committee.

In this intra-school student organization, I am responsible for the implementation of clean-up day every Thursday or Friday.

This activity involves all students to clean the school area as well as the dormitory area. I am also responsible for gymnastics, library cleaning, and health magazines. Not only that, I also participated in the national raimuna activities held in East Jakarta, Cibubur. I and 10 people from the same school as me, namely representatives from SMAN 5 Gowa. I was with 7 other students, Arifah, Tri, Eva, Ghefi, Cica, Fafa, and also Quantumnada. As well as with 3 other students. The National Raimuna is a party for scout enforcers that is held every 5 years.

After some time, my friends and I will graduate from this school, all the memories are very beautiful and hard to forget. It was time for us to choose our own paths to reach our goals.

Although sometimes I miss home, I also feel very grateful to be able to spend time at this boarding school. I learned many new things, met wonderful friends, and felt true happiness. I&#39’m sure this experience will stay with me forever.

Being a Student at Smudama.

By Ni Putu Chika

We start our school life at a very young age. Before we can understand its importance, and before we see what it is really in it for us. It may begin to feel as if school is just a place where children go to learn unnecessary formulas and complicated words that will never be used in an average conversation. Or learn things that do not relate in any way to the aspirations that have driven us during our childhood.

Saying goodbye to my families really is something that I thought would never be easy for me to accept, even tho at some point in life I have always wanted to go further away from them. Eventually things get better when I start introducing myself to my roomate and getting hang with them easily, never guess that night will be the last day I could talk to my parents through phone futhermore I couldn’t even communicate with them properly since the internet was so bad. It was really a hard time going through all of those days.

All the things I have in my expectations on this school is actually a lot more complicated. But eventually I get used to it and understand those complicated things has meanings. Having to be a junior at a very strict boarding school is not

something everybody in this world are capable to, and I’m proud to say that I’ve going through those hard days even tho the tears and sadness I felt could never lie.

Participated in many committees, learnt a lot from them. Being one of the person who’s in charge of the event is a big opportunity for me to grow and learnt how to work with a lot of people, how hard it is to make everything goes well and how hard it is to adapt with everybody’s ego. It’s hard to work or make things go the way you want when you have to work with a lot of people.

Joined an extracurricular called PMR was something I thought would be an opportunity that suits me, but I guess not. I hate seeing anybody get hurt but I would love to help them even tho I think i’m not capable to do those stuff under the pressure. But time goes by and studied 7-9 materials of PMR in 3 months plus finishing school project is a really big challange for me, how everyday we got into those pressure but long story short I finished it.

Everyday in smudama felt like hell to me, how at school were in so much pressure especially at dorm. Never really have the time to think clearly sometimes, but I’m thankful to have rommate that felt the same. Going through those days without them would probably be the death of me, I’m really

grateful they are my rommate and understand me most of the time.

Teachers here are one of my favorite too, they are all wonderful creatures. They truly care for us and protect us at all cost, sometimes they would stresses us out but the results is wonderful. Pressure at school made the person I am now, how hard it is to not be lazy and how hard it is to get things done before deadline.

My classmates, known as the least solid class ever. However, it’s true and i’m fine with it as long as we don’t knock each others down. At some days we are a solid team and somedays are just not the thing for my classmates, it’s almost time to say goodbye to them and i’m sure I will cry.

Food there also taught me to always be grateful for what ever food you have and we have to ate it too. Before going there I have always hate vegetables and fish, but after going there the only food we ate was fish and vegetables and it’s really not that bad and eventually I get used to it.

My parents and friends are all proud of me to have stayed in this school, cause to graduate here and not graduate in other place is really something we should be proud of. Grateful to be in this school but thank you, next Smudama.

 

Life Story in Smudama

                      By Nadia Amelia Rasya      

Hi, my name is Nadya Amelia Rasya, usually called Nadya. I study at SMA Negeri 5 Gowa or more often known as the mainstay school, Smudama. Many people say that the school here is one of the lucky people. Maybe I'm one of them?

So this is my story and the various ups and downs while studying here, I went to high school during the Covid period, which required me to go to school at home. I spent my days using Zoom, collecting assignments via Google Classroom, literacy via Zoom, it was very fun but on the one hand it was also It's boring not being able to study directly with friends, the downside of going to school at home is the lack of interaction with friends, the network is lost when studying, and the most unpleasant thing is if you suddenly don't log in to Zoom because you fell asleep heheh. Not long after that, the news arrived that soon we would be going to face-to-face offline school, mixed feelings, happy and sad, happy because we wanted to experience a new environment, sad because this was the first time trying boarding life.

On the day we started going to the dormitory, I was happy to see such a beautiful, big school, very beautiful natural views, mountains, cool, I thought I would feel at home but... The first day I entered it was called the serving room, it was like a place to eat, I remember my first meal of fried eggs with my older sister, I was ready to eat, but my seniors said, don't put your hands on the table, don't fold your legs, don't lean back on the chair, suddenly I was shocked and immediately asked what was wrong? Why, the answer was straight away that if you don't want problems, just do it, it doesn't make sense and really annoys me but like it or not, I have to do it.

I went into my room and met my roommates, including Rani, Nabila, Anggun and me. But Nabila hadn't come in because she was sick, so only the three of us, Nabila, came in the following week. I'll describe my room one by one.

Nabila changes mood very easily all the time, very sensitive, easily offended, diligent, good listener, doesn't like being controlled, hard to listen, just very kind, not stingy at all graceful the child is a little stressed, can't keep still, lightens the mood, cries easily, fussy, chatty, but still a very child Rani her son is good at editing, drawing, cries easily too, it's hard to tell, but he's really affectionate.

Our room is called Seruni 6, the name of the dormitory is Aspuri 2nd floor, at first I still really liked them, but over time I was able to let out what was in my heart, I got a version of myself that I couldn't show to other people, I could get a place to tell stories, it was hard to be happy, which You know how your days at school are, you know about each other's love story, sometimes it doesn't really suit you, but in a short time you're better again, if you can call it a place to rest other than at home. I just found out there's a 2 month quarantine where you can't use it. all the electrical equipment and suddenly my enthusiasm disappeared but I thought this would be easy for only 2 months. Quarantine day arrived when the cellphone was taken away, the introduction of school rules was very surprising when there were so many school rules and his older brother was fierce, the first week when he entered there were lots of activities. UKO, SSC, Karate, a very busy evening training made me feel like not playing on my cell phone wasn't a bad thing. However, incidents that made me increasingly uncomfortable slowly started to happen, mystical disturbances, actually I didn't believe it, but I experienced it myself from knocking on the door, the sound of nail clippers, the sound of crying, the sound of knocking on the floor, it wasn't just me who experienced it, almost all of my friends also experienced it. But because I got used to it, I didn't pay attention to it anymore. The thing that really made me sick was my older brother who was so aggressive in asking for forgiveness. So I don't feel at home in the dorm, but my block brother is fine so it's just fine in the room. At school, I was in the MIPA 2 class, which is known as a quiet class, heheh, but that's just the view of the other classes, we started to get to know each other. I have a teacher, his name is Mr. Syawal, I swear, this teacher is really tough. The rules in the class are not to yawn, you are not allowed to leave. toilet, if you don't do it, you'll have to do the questions, the exam every class time only takes 5 minutes, oh my god it's so tiring, you can't be late if you're late in front of the window every hour everyone is so scared.

If the snacks run out, the way to send a letter to parents is usually to use the homeroom teacher. Well, the most fun is when the class teacher is at home. My homeroom teacher's name is Mrs. Radia, she's a cool person, but sometimes...

When we get together, we usually eat together, telling stories of complaints, it's fun, but it's sad when you remember it, it's like I wanted to do it again, I was just about to graduate.

In the dormitory, there is a dormitory supervisor, Mrs. Asni and Mrs. Mardiana, who monitors us when we are in the dormitory if we need anything if we are sick, like a parent looking after their child.

Yes, that's the experience during quarantine, lots of drama, sadness, happiness, worry, mixed up. Apart from all that, there are lots of lessons that can be learned, habits that we don't normally do can be done, things that we never expected can be done, there are so many things that we will miss, only if we don't want to repeat them, things that might be impossible can be done. I did it and I learned everything so I could. The thing that has matured me is that this place is young. memories that will never be forgotten and will always be remembered in my heart until whenever I am sad, it feels good to be remembered, yeah and I believe in the words of smudama never ending story.

 

 

 

CESS

By Nurfariska Arianos

It has become a routine activity for SMA 5 Gowa to hold English and science competitions. Program aimed at junior high school students. The preparations have been neatly arranged from the formation of the committee and the duties of the executive committee.

On that day, the CESS 2023 committee was announced. Unexpectedly, I ended up in the documentation section. This is new for me, because usually I am part of the equipment section. However, I was so happy because taking photos and videos was fun for me.

"Wow... how come I entered the documentation section?" I said it.

"How come? "I see your social media is full of aesthetic photos," said Alma, CESS secretary and my classmate in the serving room.

"But I still don't think so, because I think there are still people who are much better than me," I said worriedly

"It's okay, just trust your friends," said Alma to calm me down.

I started to learn all the tasks of the documentation section well. I have a coworker who I consider the best colleague because we are in the student council, namely Fayd.

“Riska, I need someone who can be a sexy secretary. Do you have any recommendations?” said Fayd confusedly

"Hmm... how about just me?" I asked

"Behh, that's really fine"

"But help me, I don't know much about the documentation section assignments"

"it's safe"

While preparing for CESS, I experienced many obstacles with my colleagues. Twice, the division coordinator was replaced. I had a lot of difficulties because I had to adjust to new colleagues, to the point where my difficulties were getting worse because our section members were drastically reduced.

There are so many tasks and only a few people who can carry out the tasks. When the time was approaching CESS, a new coordinator appeared to replace the old coordinator.

"So far the work documentation section is only 20%, do you have a solution or suggestion?" I asked

"Hmm, I don't really know about that..." he said

It felt even harder because he didn't match what I expected. The day is getting closer to CESS, like it or

not I have to organize and divide the tasks per member well.

"So for this meeting, I want to share your assignments. Now, the part of taking documentation directly can be done by team A, team B is in charge of uploading and documenting, while team C will do the editing," I said at the documentation section meeting.

"Let me ask, will we get a camera later?" Shafwan asked

"Yes, I've told the equipment section to provide the necessary equipment," I answered

"What if tomorrow someone is sick or has problems?" Alif asked

"For those who are unable to attend, you can contact me or Ikhram as the coordinator so we can replace you," I answered

A busy night for us SMA 5 GOWA students. We put all our time, energy and thoughts into trying our best for CESS. That's how CESS is, it makes us tired but it makes us closer to each other.

The day of CESS arrived. The junior high school students who had been waiting to re-register finally arrived at our school. The competition begins, the day we have to fight a very long dry season.

"Riska, how come the core committee asked us to make a poster for this?" Arisya asked

"HAH, why are you just saying that now??" I said panicked

Quickly, I asked my friend who is good at designing posters. I try to design well and try my best. And yeahh I managed to finish well.

"This is finished, the rest is for you to publish," I said happily

"Wow, that's really cool," said Fattah

"Wow, that's really great, thank you, my favorite secretary," said Alma

It was a long and memorable week for all of us. We try new things, even if they are not within our capabilities. But we always want to try our best to make CESS a success.

 

 

 

Bonds Beyond Borders: Friendship at SMUDAMA

By Nurul Ilma Novita Rasyid

In rural Parigi stands SMAN 5 Gowa better known as SMUDAMA, a prestigious boarding school known for its academic excellence and strict disciplinary code. This is where my story begins.

I, Nuril, am a shy and quiet but determined girl from a small town who just two years ago enrolled at SMAN 5 Gowa. My journey began with fear and, a lack of self-confidence, but developed with more or less stories of friendship and self-discovery.

Upon arrival, I was taken to the girls' dormitory better known as Aspuri, where I met my roommates: Farsyah, a school canteen vegetable fanatic who studied diligently; Shabirah, a woman who prefers to be accompanied by gadgets and watching TikTok than other people and Fani, who loves the online game Roblox.

The first day at school was very exciting, school was in front of my eyes without going through a laptop screen anymore which was one thing I was grateful for, observing a handful of classrooms and trying to adapt to the tight study schedule. However, fate intervened when I met friends in the class I was in, the enthusiastic spirit they gave made me feel confident. Our friendship developed over time during our study meetings late into the night in the corner of the school.

As summer turns to rain, I discover new things. Entertainment in the serenity of the vast schoolyard and discovering my interest in photography when I took part in being on the committee for big school events.

However, amidst the laughter and friendship we experienced, there were difficult times. Entering second grade, I faced a decline in academic grades and a feeling of self-doubt emerged, but thanks to the friends I had, I gained strength from unwavering support. Through my

perseverance and determination, I overcame obstacles and emerged stronger than ever.

As graduation exams approach, I reflect on my journey and adventures at SMUDAMA. It was a chapter in my life filled with unforgettable memories, lifelong friendships, and valuable lessons. Although we will soon be saying goodbye to the familiar dorms, schools, libraries, and school canteens with all their routines, I will certainly take with me the indelible experience of boarding school—as a testament to the growth, resilience, and eternal bonds that were forged within the dormitory walls.

Quarantine

By Muh. Faiz Aminity

January 2, 2022 At that time the weather was cloudy indicating that it was time for me to leave for school activities offline time every minute towards smudama my heart felt very worried about my school time after time continued to walk towards the gate and when I was faced with the smudama gate I knew when I entered there was no turning back and with this determination I entered the gate with very high hopes

The division of rooms took place around the teacher's room showing the location of my room in pine 1 that's where I was very excited to tidy up my belongings and meet my room mates and we went around the dormitory and ended up in jasmine 7 while laughing with other friends until the time was late into the middle of the night that's where we were taught some smudama things and many other things before starting school tomorrow.

On the first day of school we were told to clean the class some of us also started to get acquainted and many other things until school hours ended and we started our socialization about school rules osis rules and so on this lasted for a whole week

Day after day passed many of us began to be reprimanded about social manners and many other things at that time I had several times felt pressure but we continued to live with it I had many kind seniors who always called me to their table and joked together.

As time went on their reprimands got harsher until it culminated at the end of quarantine we were called at night to the back of the pine dormitory we were gathered like a confessional place facing this way and that showing our mistakes there I thought they were doing this for fun but in fact I just realized that what they were doing at that time was right

Many things have happened in the quarantine both joys and sorrows and now I realize that I have to be bettermy friendship and previous brother and sister are still intertwined until now now they will face the end of their college life and I will start the beginning of my dormitory life

Life Story in Smudama

By Imad Irwanto

When I was just graduate from junio highschool I want to get in a boarding highschool. At the first time smudama wasn’t my first option to get in to, it was krida Nusantara highschool which is located at west java but unfortunately its not my destiny to got accepted there so my mom told me to search another boarding school in south Sulawesi and she recommend me to apply at smudama, after I apply and wait for the result I got in to smudama.

My first year at smudama I doesn’t really know anything about this school beside it was a boarding school and my first semester was an full online lessons so I don’t where is smudama at, how smudama looks like, hows the environment there i really don’t know anything. After a couple month joining smudama my senior has invited my generation to meet up and play futsal together, in that meeting I know it is chance to get know smudama better from my senior and from that meeting I get to know lot of thing about smudama and I can get to know my friends and my senior better.

From that meeting I learnt that smudama is famous for its performace in any competition especially science and sports for that many achievement smudama has it own motto that been pass down in many generations “One Person, One Trophy” and from that I got motivated to get my trophy for smudama.

In my second semester in smudama finally our lesson become a offline lesson so we have to come to smudama and my dorminitory life will begin and I was so exicited because one of my list is coming true. At the first time living away from my parent it was kind of weird cause like we have been living with our parents for the years and suddenly we live far away from them but after a month I finally get used to living this way.

Living at boarding school in smudama really teaches me values of live and etique at live, in smudama we are teach to really respect the ederly and we are teach how hard live could be we are teach how cruel live could be but I was so much fun cause my friend and senior was always support us when feeling lonely or desperate because of our bond in smudama from the first grader until third grader is strong.

The enviromet in smudama really good for study cause in smudama we really are competing get a nice score and because of that my fighting spirit to study is really good cause I felt I have be better than my friend, that was my first year experience at smudama and I was an amazing experience for me.

My second years at smudama doesn’t that special to me but it has it owns story cause in second years we are like the middle child, we have still respect at our senior and at the same time we have to be role model to our junior to teaches them the etique and the value of live and comfort the when they feel lonely and desperate cause living far away from their home.

As a second grader it was tough years because there lot of different activities to do like becoming part of committee and atending class it was hard manage times cause at the same time wehave to study and we have do our task at the committee it was stressful but I was fun as well, from that we have learn our priorities what we have get done first and we have to do next things. At that years too I was elected to become one of core committee and becoming one of the core comitte it was hard task cause this comitte was one of the largest event committee that held in smudama it called Competition of English and Science Smudama (CESS).

Becoming one of the core committee teaches lot of things about leadership and how to manage all of division task, it is a difficult task I can get through it cause the help of all other committee but CESS hasn’t started yet at my second year it will be held at senior years. To manage all the things about cess and study it was hard but I have get it all done at the same time cause it was my responsibility as one of the core committee and a student at smudama.

And as third year or we can call it my senior year at smudama was tough and amazing experience cause we have become the oldest sibling for our junior to teaches them everything we know about etique and live lessons, and that years to we have to study hard to get in our dream university, and that years to is CESS will be held it become lot of harder because of that. My first experience as senior it really hard to teach our junior cause not everyone can reach our expectation it was hard teaching diversity of people but from that learn about lot of characteristic of people, it is really lot of diversity between human.

And when CESS is held I was amazing because this even about competing at different field in English and science as well and the competitor is coming from all over regency in South Sulawesi like from Palopo, Sinjai, Bone, Makassar, Pangkep. In CESS its not all about competing but we embrace and make a new friend from the committee and the participant is making bond and making a experience that we will never forget about.

          After CESS is held, we as senior we return to focus on our study to achieve our goals at to get into our dreams university. For me third year was a year that get know my friend better because in third year we always meet where we get bored to study but there our friend that will support us and cheers us to get back at study and me doing it to my friend as well. My bond between my friend is becoming stronger because of yearbook photo session that need a teamwork to its so it really bonded me and friends from that.

          Now it is less than a month I study at smudama, for these past 3 year it’s a really memorable year and I definitely will cherish all of my memories about this school cause I has teaches lot of thing about live especially. And I hope for better for this school and I hope to for my friend to get into theirs dream university and will be meeting again in a better version of us.

 Personal Growth in SMUDAMA

By : Ayesha Maudyna

 

My story at smudama begins at the prestigious boarding school named SMAN 5 GOWA or usually called smudama, the boarding school is located in Mountain. It is a sprawling place with winding paths and lush greenery. the halls that we usually called selasar are filled with sound of laughter and chatter from oldest brothers and sisters and greetings like “kakak tabe kakak” with smile from the younger brothers and sisters around exploring their new home, or their second home

Me, Ayesha Maudyna still 16 years old at that time. A young person with full teenage spirit is just settling into my room, Seroja 5 in the newest girls dormitory or we usually called Asputer. Asputer is can be called a modest, yet comfortable place. My roommate is friendly and warmful people so without hesitation I introduce myself with my roommate.

There is Alma, the active person one, she is getting so active and brighty person. When we first met she is always beside me and asking me for accompanie her to explore this around dorm. And then there is Fithri, the calm person. She is really like tidying stuff at our room, even when we first met, I saw her cleaning the room two times already even there is no one coming in the room yet. And also there is Nunu, the chatty person one she is really have so many topic to discuss together with. And because of the variety personalities my roommates, I really feel welcomed and comfortable.

At smudama, I explore the new community, getting know so many traditions of this school like “how to act when we walk”, “how to act when we eat”, or “how to act when we speak to someones older”, especially the older brothers and sisters, get along with many friends especially my classmates and my force that we called IRVANA right now. And I learn about the rich history of smudama with those unique traditions that make it special.

Therefore, my journey is filled with challenges and obstacles, and I find myself in new and unknown situations, facing different situations that always require an unique solutions for me. Like, in my first year at smudama is surprisingly full of discovery and surprises, I make new friends through shared interest and experience. I also learned navigates the social scene, balancing between different event and task also navigating the social hierarchy of smudama traditions either.

I always find myself in new situations and very exhausted in my first year, discovering the new aspect of my personalities and try to exploreing new hobbies. I’ve tried faces challenges and obstacles, but I perseveres and ultimately grow from them. I try to find comfort in my independence, learning self-reliance and resilience.

My second year is a period of growth and discovery more. I get to used to the routine of smudama schedule and established routine, I also adapts to the academy workload and find my rhytym in academics.

I continues to explore my personal interest and hobbies, try to connecting more deeply with my passion. And finally, I find my place in the social hierarchy of the school, establishing solid friendship with different personalities from each person and becoming more accepted by my classmates.

I also joins the school magazines team, the “English course team” that we usually called EMC and becomes actively involved in events and activities around smudama. Each Fridays, each class have a cleaning school areas initiative by council, following my classin the cleaning mission with diligence and enthusiasm. This initiative helps myself to connect with my classmates, foster bonds, and contribute to smudama positive atmosphere.

My time at smudama includes a fair share of a adventure and excitement, but also moments of peril and challenge. One such instance occurs when I encounter trouble with the older sister in the dorm and cafetaria

I gets into trouble after inadvertently breaking some of the rules around curfew and meal times. This results in a harsh scolding from the sisters at the dorms, who remind me of the importance of following the rules and settling a good example for the other students.

After years of personal growth and discovery to the new traditions, I am ready to graduate from smudama. I am a different person from the one who first stepped onto the smudama grounds. I have developed self confidence and courage, tackling challenges and navigating obstacles with resilience and adaptability. I have forged strong friendship  also forged connections through the independency. I am more balanced, confident, and mature person already to embrace a new chapter in life.

Smudama, a Part of my Identity

By Ghea Alma m

 

Right on…. im officialy became a student in public high school 5 gowa as known as smudama . maybe for some people this school is become their dream but im not, im not proud and happy while being confirmed that I passed it. Nothing special on my eye about this school, I guess because im not into academy competition and also have not heard more about this school existence. But once, my mom ever mentioned it and told me that this school are different than other public school around and that time , I have no clue which school should I go to for continue my study journey. But here I am, a smudamers.

I slowly saw how much this school cared about its students' academic achievements. The upperclassmen give a gradual encouragement to their underclassmen not to fall behind and creating achievements every time.I remember very well one night, which was supposed to be a break after doing online classes. But the upperclassmen made an online meeting where the content of the meeting only contained points about achievement, they questioned it repeatedly with the aim to giving us motivation.Unfortunately for myself it didn't have any impact, I just felt it became a passing pressure. This is because my personality is not suitable to be treated like that, I think it just irritates me.

Once in the dormitory, that's where dormitory life begins. Boarding rules and school regulation have many points and must be understood and implemented accordingly. The old rules that were not updated seem to me very old-fashioned but normalized here. But over time, it forms a new character, ethics and mindset.

Entering the second year, the committee one by one arrived. So many events need to be arranged and run, here my study time is drained to think about the running of the event. That's right, it gives me experience and gives me more awareness of the potential I have. I wasn't a speaker and ideator at first, especially when the environment was new to me. However, the supportive environment for me to respond more and more this meeting trained me to be confident and wise in my opinions.

In this second year I held an event and grew up in school, basically I probably think it has existed from previous expertise experiences even though in fact there are so many new experiences that drain my mind, energy and time. At least it went well and was enough of an experience and learning or a story for my high school story. Entering the organization, I thought it would be good at first even though during it there were so many repeated, weightless criticisms that needed to be listened to about my choices. I'm not saying this organization is good, nor do I feel it's that special. I'm just curious, it's not a lie if I've ever said criticism of this organization that I joined but because of my curiosity that's what made me accept it. Regret is backwards, it feels like it me off about the situation and the exaggeration inside but luckily I can still see the side that I can accept. The mindset in my organization is not easy, complicated but weighty. Talking about something simple can provide new views to discuss again. However, that's it.

My second year also started with me starting to compete in the field of English, not only looking for experience, I followed it also to find out what kind of competition situation. That's right, it's my curiosity that always makes me make new decisions like this. Thank God gave me sustenance by winning me in the 2 competitions I participated in, although not the best compared to other winners. But I've become the best version of myself compared to the previous one.

Last year, it was time to look at the university and the future. My last year was different from my friends, many of them chose to spend more time with friends because the time to gather together here was not that long anymore.But for me, I prefer to be alone and spend my time quietly for my needs and things related to myself. Im already tired enough of crowded situations that it made me choose for myself. Focus on what I'm going to take in the future, focus on evaluating myself before entering a new environment and not understanding any of my character. Right, I need that adjust.

At least all my duties and responsibilities will be released in the last year, I hope it will be useful to me in the future.

How to be Strong Woman in SMUDAMA

By Sakinah Rafidah Irwinto

Introducing my name is sakinah, usually called nesha. at home my parents call me echa. at that time when i graduated from smp, my parents wanted me to enter smudama to introduce me that there was a very prestigious school, full of smart people, many successful and qualified graduates. actually i didn't really want to go there but because my parents really wanted to see me go to school there, finally i could only accept it because i wanted to see them happy. I'm not emotionally strong, especially since my parents always spoiled me, so I became a little spoiled. A little problem already stresses me out, I'm a very overthinking person, a wrong word already makes me feel bad.

Finally the day of the graduation announcement arrived, I graduated from smudama. of course my parents were happy that I graduated there. me too, but not so much. the day came when the first day of school, at that time it was a pandemic so all schools in the world were learning online including my school too. smudama is a boarding school and surely students are required to focus on learning there. The first day of online school arrived, i wore my high school uniform for the first time and turned on my camera. i introduced myself, and also my friends. during the 6 months of online school, i didn't feel too much because it was held online. so i didn't stress too much about school.

The day the Indonesian government announced that school could be held offline, I started to get a little anxious about it but stayed calm. my school also started to learn offline, I was escorted by my parents to smudama. the first time I saw smudama I was very surprised because it was very spacious. the school is really spacious compared to others. Many things surprised me while studying there, especially the rules, very strict and disciplined. moreover, seniority is high, we have to socialize with older sister when eating together. memorize names and classes, don't forget ssc, uko and so on.

There is a rule in smudama not to wear flashy colored clothes, at that time i was wearing a pink mask while eating of course big sister noticed it so they called me to his table and asked my name. they said, "pink mask here sit, what's your name?" i was nervous, of course i answered him. They didn't really show a fierce expression but the aura was quite tense. after eating and feeling that experience made me overthinking, I was worried that big sister would scold me in the dormitory. a few days passed but there was no sign that big sister would call me. so I started to feel a little relieved that at least big sister didn't mind.

I had a lot of problems when I was in first grade, especially with big sister. besides that I miss home, I always cry when I'm in the room if I remember it. I don't fit into boarding school especially since I have stomach acid. sometimes my stomach acid relapses because I'm late for breakfast because I'm in a hurry especially since school hours are very early. we have to step on the secretary's stairs first so we won't be late. it's a rule at smudama.

I had online friends when I was online, we were quite close online but when the online school was eliminated and held offline. we weren't as close as we used to be, maybe because I used to be quite quiet and afraid to start a conversation first. that's why I was stressed about school there, I missed my old online friends. coincidentally when I was online I was quite open, often active in the grub and also chatting with other friends just for pleasantries. unfortunately expectations don't match reality, it's really far from expectations when attending smudama.

I who had an overthinking nature and was also an anxious gamer began to change a little because I had to face reality. I slowly grew into a stronger person, I tried not to be closed off and started talking to my online friends in the past and the response was positive. I was very happy that even though we weren't as close as we used to be at least we were friends, so I began to learn not to be too anxious and dwell on sadness for a long time because it wouldn't change the reality. we have to act immediately, don't overthink problems without a real solution.

Not long after that I went to second grade, my rank went down in the first semester, it made me quite stressed because it made my parents disappointed. but honestly at that time my learning did start to decline because the enthusiasm for learning also decreased. so I brooded, thinking about it for days until finally I had to move on from it, I tried to do things or activities that kept me busy so I didn't think about it too much instead of having to stress and cry every day.

Every heart, every hour in smudama makes me a stronger person than before than I was at home, even though it drains deep emotions but at least it makes me a strong and independent woman there. The most unforgettable thing is the dormitory, there are many things that make me strong there. although seniority is strong but at least it makes me stronger than before and also the older sister are not bad just want to train our mentality. there are even some that are just scenarios, I got the scenario when I was in 3rd grade it really made me laugh to see it. thank you smudama for making me strong like now.

 Struggle to Improve Grades in Class

By : Anugrah Fitri Novanda

It's a sunny day, sunny enough to shine today. My name is Anugrah Fitri Novanda usually called ira. It's great to be accepted into a top school called smudama, it's been a dream of mine since I was in elementary school. it's been a long time and I never thought that I would be going to school there. Unfortunately, because the first year I was accepted there was an outbreak of corona disease, making my school held online. it makes my learning spirit decrease because of the incompatibility of online learning and it is not intensive in my opinion. studying at home is only mediocre, there is no enthusiasm, it is just lived normally. there is no sense of intuition to get a ranking in class. doing exams is just ordinary, assignments are the same.

By the time I received my first report card, my ranking was 18. Well, I didn't really care because I had no intention of getting into the top 10. The 6 month passed like that until finally the corona outbreak decreased, the government circulated that schools could be opened but still comply with health protocol rules. Of course at that time, I was very happy because for a long time I had prayed for schools to open quickly so that I could study effectively.

I was very nervous at that time, when I arrived at the school gate for the first time. my school is a boarding school so there are a lot of needs that I bought in preparation for living there, sadness is also felt because there are no parents. but it feels very happy because my prayers have been answered, I can go to school effectively again. two months of quarantine, it turned out that school there did not match my expectations at the beginning. it was quite difficult to adapt to the environment, especially because my introverted and quiet nature made it difficult for me to get along with friends. learning is also not as desired, the feeling of wanting to go home is quite large during quarantine. but I can get through it. My learning was not as effective as I imagined, it was very difficult to adapt to high school lessons, lessons were difficult to enter. and also because the environment was quite harsh plus seniority in the dormitory.

At that time I put my studies aside, focusing more on getting used to the dormitory environment. waking up at 3 o'clock in the morning to take a shower, at 4 o'clock praying at dawn, at 6 o'clock going to school, it was really difficult. getting out of the comfort zone is difficult, but over time I finally got it and began to adapt to the surrounding environment. well even though it doesn't stand out too much but at least I can get through it. it became a good habit for me while attending school here, besides that I also became more independent. finally receiving the report card for the second time, according to my expectations, my ranking only went up two levels, from 18 to 16. however, it was in accordance with my abilities because I didn't study too much. seeing that made me realize, it seemed like my learning was lacking. finally I continued to study to force myself, it was very difficult to catch up with the material that was left behind from class 10 semester 1 but really learned it from earlier.

Learning all the material was difficult, especially at that time I really hated physics material. very difficult, difficult to understand but because the ambition to raise the rankings was very large then I asked my mother to find a physics tutor for me. learning physics from the basics, even my math calculations were a little problematic. fortunately I was taught more deeply to make my calculations improve.

It was difficult at first but indeed effort does not betray results, I was able to answer physics questions from the teacher and also go up on the answer board. until the teacher got to know me, besides that for other materials I also studied hard, became brave to answer even though fear was always there. presentations as moderators too, and always present in class every day. presentation as a moderator as well, and always present in class every day. at school there is also such a thing as night consolidation, where we learn the material that has been learned yesterday by the teacher so that we really understand the material. unfortunately only a few who participate maybe it's late and also tired, I was so but because in order to be recognized by the teacher, I also tried to always attend the night consolidation.

Month after month passed, my friends who thought I was just a quiet and introverted student in the class were surprised to see my changes were quite drastic. many friends began to say hello, I also ventured to open up. it was quite a memorable memory for me, the effort was not in vain and it must be thanks to God who helped me.

The day has come, the time for receiving the report card has begun. I was so palpitating, nervous, scared and mixed feelings all together. Before receiving the report card, I prayed dhuha first, and after feeling ready, I finally went up to school to take my report card. Shocked, happy, moved to see Sadar's value rising drastically, even I got rank 6 which was originally from rank 18, oh really this is like a dream. 

Disbelief came over me, but it dawned on me that this was true. Really the effort and prayers did not disappoint, I made my parents proud, they were happy. And also they don't mind my ranking but are proud to see a very significant improvement. Thank God for granting my prayer, and also thank my parents who have always supported me, I will always pray for them.